this fairytale that i love so much, that i want to have forever has ended. no longer will i have the opportunity to hug u tightly, to kiss u on the forehead, to love u like i should. no longer will i see u turn around from me just to make mi hug u from the back. i'll never have the chance again... never. it's so hard. so hard to let u go, the things we went through together. im wasted. the tears no longer have a final destination. they keep coming. why? why does it have to be this way!! i hate myself. i hate myself... im so stupid. i caused myself to lose the love of my life, the one i want to spend my life. now it's all gone. they're all dashed. all dashed... now i dun even have that one last chance to make it up to u. to make u love and feel loved again. it hurts so deep inside. it hurts!!!! i wanna scream and pull out all this hurt in mi. i wan to have that chance to watch u play dota instead of slp. i wan to have that chance to do the things that make u happy instead of doing things that make it happy. i wan to have that chance to not be selfish anymore. but i can no longer have that. i cant... aas i watch u close that door on me, i just wanna scream. i wanna scream and shout for ur forgiveness and take mi back. i wanna run back to hug u and hear u say that this is all a bad dream. baby... wad am i going to do? wad am i going to do from now on? happiness i can never achieve... this life. wad use is this life anymore without u? aarghh...
